PANDEMONIUM

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 I woke up today with yet another feeling of bitterness and anxiety wondering where the passion that dwelt in my former self had crawled to. As I sat in deep thought, I realized that I have recently given in to the tear and wear that came from holding on to myself, the struggles that arose from finding victory. Day in, day out, I try to fix myself only to see myself throwing in the towel, the elements that make up my core seem to be in chaos, fear constantly gripping my soul and anxiety making love to my psyche. How do I fit these pieces of me together? This broken mind that has been molested by disappointment and setbacks. Deep down I feel a constant need to reach out for help hoping that peace will be restored to this heart which has been reduced to ashes by the wars that arose in the guise of love. Can healing still be found? Can salvation still be reached? What happens when a land once as beautiful, wholesome, peaceful as Cana experiences a wave of pandemic? 

I dwell in a confused state. A lot of decisions have been made and torn down all in the light of having a better tomorrow. All I see are blurred lines with zero hope of tranquility in sight. When will this roaring voice be still? How do I restore calmness to a heart in pandemonium?  

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